I can’t crawl deep enough under these layers
To ever hide from what’s inside of me
I can’t sleep away enough hours of the day
To forget about myself
How can it be this way
Why must you insist on haunting me
I never summoned these dreams
Yet still they arrive
Night after night
Like deliveries of wilted flowers
Arriving a day too late to enjoy
Or in my case, a lifetime
For you were always one step ahead of me
And on the occasion
When you look back at me
You have no face, only such indistinct features
A vaguely familiar smile I once new so well
The masks you wore to play your parts
Fall away to reveal the scared boy
Who allowed me to be free of my scrutiny
And uncovered so much of who we were
Now, that face is just undiscovered territory
Land claimed by another
and I am not a welcome guest
Every time I am turned away
Pieces of my spirit are left at your doorstep
And though I fight on, I have so little left
So please, I beg of you this one thing
Go far away from my restless sleep
Banish yourself from my thoughts and my dreams
Take the memories and do what you will
Just leave me in peace
And haunt me no more
